09.06.05
its the weather again…
there’s really something with gloomy, despondent afternoons… i hope this wont turn out to be another despondent, angsty, (bitter) entry, but that’s tantamount to saying that its freaking hot and sunny today.
… on the very same day a year ago, YOU told me that i never fail to make you happy. it was a special feeling, knowing that you’re making someone smile. in the same romantic tone of dreamers, it’s like saying that ‘im your sunshine.’ okay, that’s corny. but perhaps im still the same hopeless dreamer because i was hoping that YOU’d say those words to me again today. but dreams are dreams, and like what ive been doing for the past months, years, ive been chasing futile, hopeless dreams. i really should give YOU give up now. when you really look at it, im nothing more than another insignificant face and name in the multitude of people trying to compete for a place in your heart. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
