11.09.05

just a drizzle….

Posted in Uncategorized at 3:38 am by cla-uplb

…i got a very amusing and interesting comment from the two people who read my blog entries (yes, i finally managed to attract some readers, despite all my pathetic ramblings here). nwei, they said that my entries are usually titled, someway or another with ‘rain’. it started out as something of a coincidence, me beginning my first entry on a gloomy day. somehow, i seemed to have developed a deeply dramatic urge to write when the rain pours down, especially in torrents—all those drama and scenes of a sentimental MTV. yes, i am a romantic. along the way, it has become a sort of pattern and later on, it has become my personal ‘touch’, the identity of this particular blog. blame it all on the dramatics—-the despondency the rains brings, the melancholic feeling that creeps on you when you see the rain pouring (all those thoughts of love–yuck!, and heartaches and all the miseries of life), or just the plain dramatic clarisse who’d like to add a little touch of drama even to the titles of her blog entries.

… but when it shines (imagine the heat of the sun burning through your battered skin, past all those adipose tissues, past the muscles, past the bones of your body–what an exaggeration!), well im not despondent, thus no little stirrings of pathetic, dramatic ramblings. i still write–it has become second nature to me–but the writing is more light-headed, a sort of floating in the clouds experience. im on a high when the sun’s out!

… im meeting my new set of students next week. im actually eager, excited with the idea. think about a new set of people i can fool (heheh–joke!! someone might come across this and before i knew it, i totally blew my reputation as a teacher to tatters). but seriously, a new semester signals a new set of clays to mold, a new batch of seedlings to take care of and grow. whoohoooh!!! that’s another set of people to whom i can leave a legacy. take away the stress, the amount of work it entails, take away the pay and all the headaches—-somehow, the thought of a humanitarian legacy-my contribution to this little world of ours–is enough to keep me going and say to myself that, yes, it is worth it and it will pay off!!!

… i can only hope so much.

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