11.03.05
november…
im doing this in 5 minutes…
the gods had been good to me. i got a week worth’s vacation–and that means free food, free movie marathons, free gimicks, free laughter and company. ahh! nothing beats the feel of home! someday i got to think about moving back to the province, probably finding a job in one of the universities there and settling down for good with my own family. lb’s great–no offense, but the place is too small for me i sometimes get claustrophic feelings. city life has always appealed to me (in some way). like what i always say, its a good place to get lost and be obscure. our place in the province provides me just the exact comfort—not too small that everywhere i turn i see the same faces, the same structures, and not too big also that you won’t know your way back home.
… in a week or so im going back to my life at the university. the rigors of earning money. if it isnt for my sister (who’s going to medschol) and my own vanity, i probably would be slaving off at the beach or travelling to some god-knows-where place and just basking in my own company. but work provides one with a purpose, and somehow, the money i earn here can hopefully afford me a plane ticket for a trip to the places ive always wanted to go.
…ok, im being spontaneous here. just trying to maximize my 5 minutes. i never was able to see the person i was hoping to see when i came home. looks like when someone doesnt want to be found, you really wouldnt see him, no matter how hard you look. anyway, i should be over this whole things so i have no business looking for YOU in the first place. blame it on some stupid idea that i can purge YOUr memory with one final glance.
…i got back on my feet and started writing again. im currently working on one really great piece, something i can really relate to. and im freaking excited about the whole thing because it serves as a panacea for me, a reliever for this broken soul. someday i hope i could turn it into some movie script—ahh, some dream! but really, i honeslty am finding some good thing about this current project. perhaps, hopefully, this would really provide me the closure i so desperately crave.
till then…
