12.01.05
december…
… its the first day of december. i wonder how this year would end for me? hopefully, it would finish off with me accomplishing the things im supposed to accomplish (i.e. the minutes for the department’s meeting, the initial data gathering for that research that the team’s working on, and many others). i hope it would finish off with me realizing at least half, if not three-fourths of those dreams i set for myself at the start of the year (i.e. lose those extra pounds, be more beautiful inside and out, learn to relax and go out every now and then, save up enough money for sister’s med studies, and yes, find myself a boyfriend. wehehe) ..the last one is a big joke, because afterall, its something that’s way beyond my control. i dnt think dear old Santa could even grant me that wish. okay, so maybe ill just change it to something more realistic then–perhaps, forget the people from the past that im supposed to forget but i never could. i hope it would finish off with me starting on new and big projects (i.e. learn digital recording, finish a novel, edit dad’s manuals, produce a documentary etc.) dreams, dreams, dreams…
…i hope the holidays would bring something new. i hope i would receive something extra special for christmas this year. im not complaining, afterall, i have many happy christmas memories. what more could i possibly ask? i spend it with my whole family, complete with the whole regalia. and yes, i pray that it would always stay that way—a complete, happy, fun-filled, blessed experience. i hope its not too much to ask from dear old Santa, but could you possibly grant me that one big thing ive always asked for? no, its not anything material; its not a big promotion at work. its not even a luxurious, dream-come-true vacation package. its something that would complete me, make my life extra happy (and chaotic sometimes, maybe), and generally make my existence in this world a whole lot more meaningful and special.
… can you guess? 
