01.26.06

escape

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:32 am by cla-uplb

this is all about escape…

.. im spending the time writing this entry to escape from the reality of my world here at the university–a reality of papers and tests to check, lessons to prepare, students to educate, superiors to please and expectations to meet. i love my work, but sometimes, one couldnt help it if the work is such a drag, you simply just pray for the day to be over.

… im escaping from the reality of my usual desperate lifestyle (the singlehood, the anorexic bank account, the "gimick-less nights", etc) by indulging in a ‘coffee-session’ with my buddies, and talking about dreams and big paychecks and hot cars and overseas travel and gimmicks.

… im escaping from the reality of my other responsibilities by ignoring messages and requests and calls, and giving the cliche excuse — im busy, im sorry. ill try.

… im escaping from the reality of my lovelife (god! does it even exists?) by putting in a couple more hours in overtime and just losing myself in the papers to check. i dont want to think that there’s no one who bothers to ask me if i’ve already eaten, or if im home safe, of if i even have a date this coming valentines. hehehehe. ;-) im escaping from the reality of a heart broken by rejection by thinking that we’re just friends. im escaping from the reality of a hopeless love by constantly praying that he’d learn to love me. im escaping from the reality of a being ignored by YOU by putting in more effort in these entries (than my work), hoping that the words would get through to YOU (which is obviously not working). ;-)

… im escaping from the reality of my sad, sad story by listening to other people’s happy ones, and weaving a thick dream of writing, if not my own happy tale, then at least, theirs.

;-)



1 Comment »

  1.    Lourdes said,

    January 28, 2006 at 5:43 am

    my dearest clarisse,

    the next time you want to escape the world with someone, count me in. :) there are days when i feel this heaviness too and it would be lovely if someone like you would be around to share that momentary freedom with me.
    ____
    as a reader, id like to know what are the things you definitely won’t escape from if you encounter it. you’re a good writer and im sure i’ll be in for a treat when i read your dream and fantasies.

    as your sis, i want you to know, im here for you. :) mwah

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