02.28.06
time to de-stress
read a mail from one of my brods about stress, and it made me stop and ponder about my current status. these past few weeks, ive received comments from friends and co-workers saying that i look as if im carrying the burdens of the world on my shoulders. i surely hope im not, but from the way one of my friends described me, i look like hell (puffy eyes, pallid complexion, hunched shoulders, heavys steps). true enough, there are simply a lot of things in my mind right now–and its not everything about work, mind you. simply put, i think my concerns(valid or not) are simply too much for me to handle. =)
the demands of my work will never ease. i constantly try to tell this to myself. afterall, this is what i like to do. and there’s some degree of personal satisfaction (other than the monetary kind) that i get from the work i do. still, sometimes, it can be a drag, and there are times when you just want the day to be over.
the stress comes from the other things i worry about—responsibilities to people, my deflated bank account, my sister’s med studies, the desire to buy a laptop, the dream of going abroad and studying there (or perhaps, work there), and my emotional needs (ah! such a technical, scientific way to phrase the lack of a lovelife).
so im here, trying to de-stress in the best way that i know. i hope that by writing this, im able to release all the stress chemicals in my body. if i dont do something about this, i think im gonna break down by the end of the semester. its time to de-stress.
im also listening to Lisa Loeb’s and Dixie Chicks’ music–the former’s upbeat, lively tunes completing the perfectly dramatic, despondent melodies of the latter. darn, reminds me of just one person and he’s not even meant to be remembered. why do YOU have to pop into my thoughts and my words? couldnt YOU just have stayed in the deepest recesses of my mind, a buried memory? now, im turning into one melodramatic, stressed girl.
so much for de-stressing…well, i think ive reached the end of my 30-minute de-stressing time. its time to go back to my reality and face the music…
