05.26.06

a step forward

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:35 pm by cla-uplb

im excited about a lot of things these days.

… im excited about getting back on my feet and functioning like a normal individual again, sans the manic depression and my pathetic ramblings about my lovelife. im looking forward to just being myself, living on my own, going out with friends, no hassles, no commitments, and most especially, no disappointments and rejections to deal with.

… im excited about writing and writing and writing. im excited about doing this thing, which i have always wanted to do. im looking forward to staying up late at night or waking up early in the morning and touching the keyboard of my computer. i want to feel the humdrum of the words as they flow easily from my mind and into the screen. im excited about seeing ideas taking form, being real.

… im excited to see my bank account fatten up, after being anorexic for such a long, long time. im excited about saving up money for those things i have always wanted for myself and my family — a car, a trip abroad, a laptop, a nice vacation house for mom and dad, a chance to treat my siblings to a nice, fun-filled vacation, a house for myself. it feels good to be financially stable, to know that somehow you won’t be in want for always. yes, im saving up for my future.

… im excited about starting my masteral studies next sem and finishing it as soon as possible (three to four years is good enough), and then working on that PhD scholarship abroad next.

… im excited about learning new things, expanding my horizons and working on making my dreams come true. im excited about moving on and stepping forward, about forgetting the past (and yeah, the people in it) and enjoying my life.

… no more hang-ups, no more regrets, no more feelings of betrayal or disappointment or rejection.

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