09.27.06

limbo

Posted in Uncategorized at 6:10 am by cla-uplb

im a zoombie these days, make that a lost, preoccupied zoombie. the papers on my desk in the office is in bad shape, a terrible mess if you call it, even if i have already brought half of those papers at home to check on weekends. welcome to the academe! no wonder teachers don’t get to have a social life anymore… tsktsktsk…

besides the papers and the tapes, there’re also the preparations for the Faculty Follies and the Loyalty Day Foot Parade, which brings me to the next point of my entry. i’m definitely going to start those dance lessons. we were practicing a dance number for the Follies presentation and it just felt sooo000ooo gooo000d! it felt good to sweat and to shake my body and to jump and sing my lungs out. it empties the mind of all the worries, releases all those endorphins in your body, and gets the blood moving again after a day of sitting on a chair, bending over a paper that you’re checking. it’s definitely a good break, a perfect diversion, and it gives you enough reason not to check the papers anymore and tell your students you’re returning them the next day instead because you’re needed in the practice. sweating like that and dancing like that reminded me of how good it felt to be a student, and yes, that i have a social life and that im capable of doing other things besides running that red pen over a page and scribbling down comments and deleting words and sentences.

call me a sucker for torture and self-inflicted misery, but somehow, the zoombie mode is a good escape from more depressing thoughts. work is the perfect escape from some other things you’d rather not dwell or think about. and you hide the hopelessness behind fake smiles and forced enthusiasm.

i know that you already know… its midnight and the princess has to go home. the fantasy would have to end…

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