02.11.07
lifetimes
“Why did you have to say those things? Take them back, please…”
“No, I won’t.”
“You do know that all we’re ever going to have are moments like this.”
“Yes. This will have to be enough for now.”
“You would have to wait for me — for the next lifetime, when the hand is ready to be held by the hand that’s ready to let go…”
“I’m looking forward to that next lifetime.”
I don’t exactly believe in lifetimes, but if it’s true, then I guess I’d better start hoping and believing that my next lifetime holds more promise, more happiness, and happier realities.
This isn’t to say that I’m not happy with my life right now. I’m blessed – with my family, my friends, my job, with opportunities and possibilities. In more ways than one, I am content with what I have, though there are the occasional longings for a stress-free, hassle-free work, a higher pay perhaps, opportunities to travel and laze around in sunny beaches and enjoy winter holidays abroad, my own car, even a love life. 
But I am happy, luckier than other people.
SO, what’s with the next lifetime? Nothing really. I hope it’s not too much to ask that if ever I get to have another chance at being born again, I’d still have the same luck that I have in this lifetime. And though there are a number of people I’d rather not meet again in my next life, there are still many souls I’d like to see again – my family, my friends, my students, my co-workers, the smart, preppy, chinito doctor, the guy with the intense eyes and raw, magnetic sex appeal. More importantly, I hope that the next lifetime would allow for the hand to be held by the hand that’s ready to let go. I hope the next lifetime would hold better circumstances – wherein no one would be hurt at the expense of one’s own happiness, when no reputation would be destroyed, when other people’s opinion wouldn’t matter, when the words can easily be uttered, when emotions can be translated into actions uncensored.
Yes, a happier reality.
happy valentines everyone!
